Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Balance...

It's been a bit since I have updated this, but I figured it was about time...

I feel like after we got back from Rwanda I kinda took a break from a lot of areas in my life. There were things I needed to get done as soon as I got back...MOPS stuff, some wedding and shower invitations, and just general house stuff, but the rest of it I just ignored. My garage is still filled with garage sale stuff that needs to be dealt with. There are so many emails that I need to write that I haven't. I guess I just really began to realize the toll that the trip and the adoption process has taken on me...and so I've rested. I'm beginning to get back into the swing of things, which feels good. I feel more ready to get back to life now.

The adoption stuff is all in the holding pattern now. We are just waiting for the government to let us know if we are accepted. It's a whole new type of stress. I think I'm finally beginning to strike the right kind of balance with my emotions. I'm hopeful, so hopeful, but I'm not letting my mind just run wild...I have a tendency to do that kind of thing. A daydreamer if you will. But as I sit right now and hope and pray that we will have little Nate in this family soon I am also mindful that I have a beautiful family that God has already blessed me with. A balance...

Well, I guess that it is it for now. Anthony and I are going to leave in a little bit to visit his first little niece. Another little lady. It will be fun when our little man joins this crazy mix.