Tuesday, February 26, 2013

More snow.

We are having another snow day here.  Facebook is kinda funny right now because half of my friends are loving the fluffy white stuff while the other half are whining not happy about it.  Me?  I am loving the slow pace that comes with unplanned days stuck at home together.  I even got up early this morning and enjoyed a quiet house, a little bible time, and a magical view out the window.

This snow has truly been good for my soul.

Saturday, February 23, 2013

Here it is!

So I launched the new blog!  I hope you enjoy it!

Find the link to the right under "my other blogs".

Friday, February 22, 2013

12 inches.

A foot of snow has come to mean a couple of snow days for us here in Kansas and we have been living them up. (Read...lots of fun followed by near breakdowns by each family member.)  Here are just a few pictures to show how we do snow days around here.

glad we weren't planning to go anywhere...that's our street!
we have a very long driveway...bless this man

quiet house for me and the little guy

no snow day is complete without it!

look who came out to play!

putting the library books to good use

and you know, cause I had time

There were other lovely things like homemade soft pretzels and warm baths and beers and This American Life and The Lumineers that filled the day...yep, this former New Yorker loves a good foot of snow.

Thursday, February 21, 2013

Family projects.

Whenever a paper with the phrase "Family Project" on it comes home from school, I cringe.  I don't homeschool our kids and I don't want to.  I see my job as helping them think through character issues.  We talk through their relationships, what it means to be a hard worker, responsibility, kindness...you get my point.  I help them with their homework when they have questions, but I don't do it for them.

Our kids go to great schools in a wonderful school district.  I trust the level of teaching they are receiving.  Don't get me wrong, I view my role as a support seriously.  Two of our kids are getting extra support in speech and I spend a significant amount of time working on things with them.  But to me that is a lifeskill, not book learning, so I'm all over it.

But these projects kill me.  Busy work, I'm sure to make sure we are engaged.  And maybe for some families it is really great, but when four kids come home with projects in the same week, I just want to pull all my hair out.

Anyway, so Lucy had a February heart project that I keep forgetting to have us do, but we finally got it done and it turned out pretty cute...and I had a lot of fun working on it with her.  Damn, they sucked me in again.

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Something New.

So I have this little project I have been working on.  A little something that has nothing to do with the kids.  Or laundry.

At the end of this week I am hoping to launch a new blog.  It's something that I have been working on for awhile and I can't wait to share it with you all.  It has nothing to do with my family, or even me.  What it is is a collection of posts written by a variety of people on a variety of topics.  A space to share what people are thinking on things in a respectful way.  And, more importantly, a chance for us each to read someone else's thoughts in the hope to be more thoughtful people.

Little by little, people are submitting posts for me.  They are truly on all sorts of things...some of which I agree with, some that I don't.  It has been such a neat experience to read someone else's thoughts when they aren't feeling like they need to defend or attack.

It would be fun if this takes off.  In part, because I am having so much fun doing it and in part because I (and I think others) really crave conversation that isn't pissed off.

Anyway, so I am really excited about it and hope you will enjoy it!  Stay tuned!!

Monday, February 18, 2013

Time for Tea.

I've been kinda quiet on here so far this year.  I guess I am in this time where my days seem to run away from me and I finish them with a cup of tea, sitting on the couch, watching The Office, wishing I had accomplished more.

Remember at the beginning of January, when I wrote about my goals?  How I was thinking through who I wanted to be? Well, I still mull over that question all day long and I have to say that I have no idea how to answer it.  And I'm struggling.

I love my life.  I love my kids and my husband and my home.  We are going to a really good church (which has been a really long journey for us) and Anthony is finishing up school.  And he has done amazing.  And he is amazing.  I think a lot about how I parent my kids and I truly feel like I am doing a good job (although I definitely still yell too much).  My family is clean and fed and happy...and I'm struggling.

It's a tough stage, having a new baby, and I have had trouble finding myself.  Matthias is a great baby, but he's consuming.  I love the time he and I spend together playing with his "chewy monkey" or taking another bath, but by the time I lay him down and make myself a hot drink (yes, that's how I relax), even if I don't have to do anything for anyone else right at that moment, I find myself with just enough time to start to relax before he is up and ready to go.

During my pregnancy, I began to really feel good about myself.  I hit that sweet spot in life where I just felt like I was doing exactly what I was supposed to.  And it felt so good.  It's not like I don't realize that this time with Matthias isn't exactly where I am supposed to be right now, its just that I don't feel like I am doing life the way I really want to.  The way that will make me smile at the day.  And I'm struggling.

I'm not sharing this because I want you to worry about me.  (Mother, I am talking to you!)  I'm not worried about me.  I'm just thinking a lot right now.  I'm trying to figure out my life right now, and I don't think for a second that this is a bad thing.  I'm thankful for times like this when I get real quiet and introspective.  I guess I'm just sharing this because this blog is about giving you a glimpse into our life and if you peeked into my window right now you would see me sitting on the floor, a 5 month old squirming in my arms, an 8 year old sitting on the floor next to me doing her math homework, which I just checked while writing this...

It's a sweet life, and yet I'm struggling.  Some days all I want is to actually drink the cup of tea, warm, without having to reheat it 6 times.  Life is an interesting journey, isn't it?

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Happy Valentine's Day!

Life has been busy lately and you know how much I like busyness.  The girls parent teacher conferences,  meetings for Nate, entirely too many valentines, a husband who is in his final big push before graduating, a very hungry baby boy...I need a nap.

But I love life.  And I love my six amazing valentines.  So, Happy Valentine's Day!